My Precious Niece Vanessa,

                                  I wanna start by telling You that I miss You so much everyday that passes,Vanessa I don't often come in your site these days cause every time I do my tears starts falling without even realising that I am crying cause every time I see your beautiful smiling face I get a sharp pain in my heart cause I miss you so very much.2 years have passed my precious niece and still I can't believe that you are gone,and thats why i want to write you this letter today to tell you that even though i don't come in your site everyday it doesn't mean that I have forgotten you qalbi,don't ever think that cause from the moment I open my eyes in the morning till I fall asleep you are constantly on my mind.We will never forget you Vaness,we talk about you a lot and I always pray for you.I know you are in heaven ,a much better place from where we are,but still it tore us all apart that you had to leave us so young.Our lives have changed drastically and will never ever be the same without you.Specially to me you were like a Daughter and also to your cousins specially Samantha you were like a sister.We miss you so much.I wish I could change things but I can't cause God had other plans for you and wanted to take you to heaven with him.Pray for us Vanessa cause we need a lot of courage and Faith.Know that You are always in our heart and we love you very much.We cover your beautiful face with kisses and keep that beautiful smile on your face cause thats how i'll always remember You......SMILING>..cause before I fall asleep thats the image I always have ,YOU smiling down on Us.We love YOU and miss you qalbi.oxxoxoxoxoxoxox

                                                            LOVE ALWAYS

                                                                  AUNTY RITA,UNCLE SAM

                                                                         COUSINS,

                                         SAMANTHA,BRANDON & ZACHARY.

ALWAYS HAPPYNESS IN THIS BEAUTIFUL FACE, EYES THAT REFLECTS PEACE....VANESSA YOU MUST LEFT BIHIND MANY, MANY PEOPLE THAT LOVE AND MISS YOU EVERY DAY....INCLUDING  ME...LOVE ALWAYS... 

VANESSA... MANY FACES OF AN ANGEL LIGHTING UP HAVEN WITH THIS BEAUTIFUL SMILE...PURE, SINCERE...LOVE...SHINES IN YOUR EYES...LOVE ALWAYS...

WHITH YOU VANESSA...THE LOVE FOR YOUR FAMILY IS SO REAL....I CAN FEEL IT...SWEET ANGEL  SLEEP IN PEACE....BUT TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY TO SMILE YOUR WAY AROUND HEAVEN...LOVE ALWAYS...

ANOTHER PART OF THIS BEAUTIFUL GIRL...ALWAYS WITH A SMILE...GOD BLESS YOU VANESSA...GOD BLESS YOUR FAMILY THAT MISS YOU SO MUCH,SWEET ANGEL GIRL...VINCENT AND YOU WERE SO LUCKY TO HAVE KNOW THE TRUE LOVE OF A SISTER AND A BROTHER...LOVE ALWAYS... IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER FOREVER............

Hi my bubbie. I'm having a hard night tonight so I thought it would make me feel a bit better to write to You. Daddy Vincent and I went to Malta just 3 weeks to be closer to You for your 26th Birthday and your 2 nd Angel Anniversary.We also has to Masses in your Honor,and after the both Masses everyone your family and friends came home for food,drinks and to talk.We had a Birthday Cake for You,hope you liked it and after Your brother cut the cake we went in the back garden to release 26 Balloons. I even had a Special one Winnie the Pooh.Judy and Mike also came from San Francisco just to be with us for your Birthday Celebration.We had so many of your friends and your brother friends from America to Celebrate Your Birthday/Angel Anniversary.You are so special to me. Oh my Vanessa this cannot be real that You are not here with us,why why do I have to write this,You should be here with us,with mommy ,daddy and Your brother Your cousins,aunts and uncles,we miss You so so much,this is a bad dream my love,it is. Vincent drove me everyday and many times Auntie Rita too to visit You at your Resting Place,we placed flowers,cards and candles, we just broke down and cried and cried. It broke my heart every time I had to turn away.We are all hurt,daddy misses You a lot. Zija Mary and Auntie Guza often visit You and place flowers at Your Resting Place,and while we were at your Resting Place a white butterfly just flew over your Stone twice and then flew away and so does Auntie Annie visit you.No one will forget You my pupa .You are so special to all of us. We spend a lot of times with our families, nanna misses you so much,and nannu is starting to forget things he is getting old,but he still remembers You,I showed him my photo on my mobile and I said dad who is this? And he said Our Vanessa.Then nanna said to him she is in a better place in Heaven and nannu said yes she is. It really breaks my heart when we are all at nanna's house and You are not there with us.
Vanessa this just does not seem real....it seems like You are away and then You will be coming home. God how much I miss You. How I wish I could see Your beautiful face,that Gorgeous Smile again in person and tell You how much I love You like I did every day, how I wish I could have You come into my room when You got home from wherever You were and kiss me and tell me Mom I'm home,I miss You calling me Mom. I miss that word so much. I miss that so much. I miss everything about You my Vanessa I miss You so much. I thank God I have daddy and your brother.He is just like you,your brother lovable,kind hearted and same as daddy.They both are good and with lots of Patience. I miss our family Hugs,remember how we hugged we still do it and we hold your photo so tight we love you and miss you so much bubbie.
My Vanessa....when will it get easier, when will I be able to smile and not feel bad about being happy? When will any of this make sense?I have so much to tell You and so much I need to talk with you my bubbie.So much has happened,You should see all your cousins,Zachary and Brandon they are all grown up.You would be so proud. And Samantha is a beautiful young Lady.And Sunta is so Gorgeous.She is almost here everyday with us after she finish work,then your brother drives her home,just like you always did,drive all your friends home.And cousin Rebecca is a mother of 2 now,she is a perfect mom with 2 beautiful boys,Julian and Lukas they are adorable. You would love them so much. You always loved kids,you were always surrounded with kids and friends wherever you went. Whether it was in Malta or here,our house was always full with your friends. I hope you have a lot of kids and friends in Heaven with You my bubbie.You were also called mother hen You loved the kids so much. We talked about You all the time it always makes us smile. I try to smile for daddy as him and your brother always try to crack Jokes to see me smiling and I try to smile, but inside of me is just so torn up.Your friends keep visiting us from time to time,but it is not the same without You my bubbie.They still keep in touch with us so good to me my Vanessa You would be proud of all your friends as they are all so good in keeping in touch with us and asking if we ok or if they can do anything for us. It makes me feel good inside to know that they still think of me and want to come over to visit.It's such a nice feeling to know how much You touched peoples lives.But it is not the same that you are not here,when your friends visit,it breaks my heart, I try not to cry when they come,but when they leave I cry so much,I cry so much and say to myself that you should be here with us.I miss you so much sabiha tighi. You sure passed out a lot of Love and Kindness and still do as a matter of fact. Almost every once in a while something comes up,we know how many people's Lives You have Touched and You still do so.I'm sitting here writing to You and tears are just streaming down my face. I so wish I could call You on a cell phone and say my Vanessa..where are You ?Coming home soon? Your brother calls from time to time when he go out, just call to check in...I worry so much when he is out of the house...How I miss so much that you always took your brother out with you wherever you went,you were so close together. He misses You so much. Well my sweet loving girl...I'm going to go to bed and try to get some much needed rest. I love You to the world...I know You are still here with us,only wish it was in person....keep sending me those signs...they make me feel so good when You do.....I smile whenever I know that the sign I see is from You ,I smile at You all the time qalbi,how can I ever forget that BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS SMILE...HOW CAN I?....and that SMILE is TRULY A REAL ONE...I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH~WE ALL LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU~MOMMY DADDY BROTHER VINCENT,NANNA NANNU,ZIJA MARY,AUNTIE GUZA,UNCLE TONY,ANNIE,SUNTA,REBECCA,AUNTIE RITA,UNCLE SAM,SAMANTHA,BRANDON AND ZACHARY.
REST IN PARADISE

For the memories, for the laughs we had, having you in my life will never be forgotten. Having you as a friend will always be in my heart and soul. I wish you haven't gone but i know you are in a place that is filled with love.

Please know I had your precious Angel in my heart yesterday ..July 29th.. on her birthday!  I too share the same birthday with her!!  And now I will be thinking of & praying for all of you that love & miss Vanessa so..as her angel day draws near. 

God Bless!!!!  Angela

It is so hard to believe You have been gone 2 years.Everything still reminds me of You.I see the Sun shining...I think of you,I look into your brother's eyes,it reminds me of you,my gosh bubbie I look at Daddy I feel his pain too. I speak with my family about you always,I see something funny,I think ...Oh how my Vanessa would have laughed ..I think of you...I know how you never wanted me to be sad or unhappy,but it often brings me comfort,a peaceful feeling.My Vanessa here we are 2 years from that day that changed our lives forever.I am still trying to get through my life without you.I know you didn't know the impact this would  have on our lives,I do continue searching for you where ever we go,I know I will find you only in my memories,memories of your big beautiful smile and your big brown eyes,how can we ever forget those eyes that radiant smile,that sense of humor that was Yours alone,and your funny jokes.You and your Brother shared and many more and that we can still hear you.You were that one of a kind,if only we could turn back the time.I look for you in crowds,especially places where I'm used to seeing you ,but those places aren't the same anymore for me cause I know you won't be there.When the phone rings I pray to hear your voice...I just need to talk with you my bubbie,I have so much to tell you and share with you.I feel the things were left so unfinished.You are on my mind all the time.To see your smile and to hear your laughter always made me feel whole and no matter how downhearted I was always lifted me up above any sadness or pain.That was my Vanessa. ~~To know her was to love her.~~

You couldn't help yourself...that's just the way my Vanessa was.So now when I feel a little sad or down I think of you my Vanessa and your beautiful smile, your laughter,your love for me,for everyone. I know someday I will see you again,that's my believe,until thast time,I will keep my Vanessa close to my heart and forever etched in my memory...till we meet again...Love you FOREVER.

REMEMBERING HOW MY DAY STARTED WHEN YOU WERE BORN~JULY 29TH 1982~~AND HOW MY DAY ENDED JULY 31 ST,2006

I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER MY ANGEL IN HEAVEN.......

``

So hard to believe 2 years has passed since I've looked into your eyes.I look at all your pictures and all I do is cry.Thoose big brown eyes and that beautuful smile soothes my heartache for a while.I long to see your face and feel your arms, giving big hugs and spreading all your charms.You hold a special place in everyone's heart,a place  we can go and never be torn apart,As the memories flow through this month of July,we will never forget you,and will always remember that God has set you free.

Loving you and missing you always forever mommy Rest In Paradise

Dearest Vanessa we celebrated your 26th Birthday.First, came on your resting place to lay flowers and cards,and while we were there a beautiful butterfly came by and flew over you,we were overwhelemed,then we had the celebrated Mass in your honor and then we came home and all your family...Nanna ,nannu,uncles,aunts and cousins Judy and Mike from California and your friends and your brother friends came to our house we had a Birthday cake in your name and we let 26 ballons and 1 winnie the pooh .We hope you got all the ballons and we also attached  notes to a few.We miss you so much but we all knew you were with us in Spirit.This is the card we got for you bubbie.....No one can count on the future or know what they someday might do.But could we have chosen a daughter,our heart would have reached out for you~We'd have wished for your warm disposition and dreamed of your spirit and style,We'd have hoped for your love and affection,imagined your beautiful smile...Life holds some gifts and surprises,and one of the best there could be is having a daughter as perfect as the one who was given to us.

                Happy Birthday to You Dughter~

           a Daughter who means so much to us

                May your day in Heaven bring every Beautiful

                    things you can imagine... and more

                        ALL OUR LOVE FOREVER AND EVER

                          Mommy Daddy Brother Vincent xoxox