We think of You often and this is not getting any easier for me..
I have so many thoughts of You.
Thoughts of You fighting Your battle, and how strong You were You had tears in Your eyes ,You heard everything we were saying to You, but You could not respond because you were lost.
How can I not shed tears? We think the toughest thing we had to witness was seeing You lying there not in control of your LIFE your BODY?! You were so strong ,strong till Your last breath,You did not want to let go! I always saw You as You were growing up...a strong willed, unbeatable. I miss You so much.We will forever keep you in our mind and the Beautiful Memories we had together but............
We don't want just memories, we want You back. It doesn't work that way! We do cherish all the memories we have and I hold them so dear to my heart. Everything I do, I include You. I make things that have You included in it.We have the Colon Cancer Walk in Memory of You that Your Best friend Estelle organized .We keep You alive around us all the time.
Please watch over us all the tine and especially Your brother he misses You so much, he is often quite and all to himslef.He do go out on week end to be with his friends,I know that you want him to go on with his,and that you want me and daddy the same way too,as You were always happy as long as You saw us all happy. I know this is killing me with the grieving,I miss you more than anything my Vanessa. How I wish I can turn back time to have You with us,as one family.
I have so many things on my mind and in my heart, that I don't understand. I miss You so damn much my Vanessa...I MISS YOU! I WISH YOU WERE HERE! WITH US. I miss our talks, your advice or just plain mother -daughter moments. WE MISS OUR FAMILY OUTINGS,BEING TOGETHER AS A HAPPY FAMILY. Some day, some time, some where we will see each other again. In Heaven wait for us and save that seat. very much and Miss you always We will be seeing u in my dreams . Keep showering us with your Angel Love and our hearts warm with Your Beautiful smile. Let us not ever forget your Beautiful face in our memory. My heart is full of love for you my daughter. ...Forever we will miss YOU.

Dearly Beloved Family...

May you feel Vanessa's love all around you and find comfort through your precious memories; she now has peace beyond our imagination.

~ God Bless ~

You have touched so many lives with Your Beautiful Smile, Caring Ways, Incredible Strength, Courage, and Selflessness,Your Loving Ways I could go on all night! You are and will continue to be,Our Inspiration to all of us. You taught us that the pretty things in life are not worth stressing over, that life is meant to be lived and lived Loving.That was so You,You Loved everyone. Thank You for all of that and so much more my Vanessa I cant help but wonder if You are sitting with Your laptop on top of a Beautiful Cloud in Heaven reading all of Your emails and how many Lives You still touching!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS LOVE WENDY AND SARAH ANGEL KEVIN CONATTY FIANCE AND STEP DAUGHTER

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VANESSA

Well my Vanessa we are into December now.It hurts us so much at this time,it was on Christmas Eve that you had strong pains,and You did not want to go to ER,You said no mommy,it's Christmas Eve and I don't want to ruin it for us.But then Christmas morning you had the pains so strong you could not walk and we had to take You to ER.Oh my bubbie how it kills me this day to remember all this.I will never ever forget that Christmas morning .I miss You so much my Love. Its starting to get colder.I know how much You hated the cold frigid weather, especially when You had the chemo,it was effecting You so bad the cold weather,but You never complained,You just wanted to be warm and snuggled.I miss You so much and snuggling with You qalbi. I hope You are warm and snuggled in Heaven. I sit here and look at Your pictures looking back at me, its so unreal for me, one day You are here talking to me and then the next You are gone forever, never to come back and speak or touch me.I wait for You everyday to come home. I miss You so very much, others just will never understand this deep hurt. I hide a lot of my emotions from others,especially from Daddy and Your brother,it hurts them more to see me like this crying everyday.So I try not to cry much in front of them.Deep inside I know they are hurt as well and with Daddy's Parents their wedding Anniversary on Christmas Eve and they are not here I know he is hurt.Hug and Kiss them for us bubbie and wish them our wishes. Oh I try and try to be strong for Daddy and Your brother.He misses You so much,I could see the hurt and sadness on his face. You hated to see others hurting, especially us,You always wanted everyone to feel good about themselves, no matter what.I  will never forget when You caught me with tears when You were sick in the hospital and You would look in my eyes and tell me mommy,why are You crying? How I could not cry to see You sick and weak and You was so strong, I think of so many things that we shared together as a family,we miss all that,how You used to take us shopping,to dinner .Well Your brother is doing the same now for us,You would be so proud of him to see him drive ,how many times You were out with Your friends and he would call You to go and pick him up and You would leave everything and go for him,actually this weekend Viva and Patrick came over and she said the same to Vincent,how she would leave us and come and pick You up, and You once said that she said to You Vincent get Your Licence,but she loved You she always took care of You before her friends.She was always there for You and everyone else. He try to be strong as well like daddy, he is trying to make the most out of life. This is not easy on any of us. We all have to deal with it differently, but You changed Our Lives, we are not the same anymore and never will ever be without You.We all love You so much. I don't want anyone to ever forget You or what You meant to others and the love You had for Your family. We talk about You all the time at home. We cannot believe You will be away from us this Christmas again bubbie.We know You will be with one of Jesus Best Angel and Celebrating his Birthday and All the other Angels. We miss You so much We did not decorate much daddy just did the Pionsetta's and WE BOUGHT ONE ESPECIALLY FOR YOU AND PUT IT NEAR YOUR PHOTO and the Nativity that's all.We are not up to decorate,it was  always You that was always full of life and wanted us to be happy all the time,and did all the decorations and the way You decorated the Tree.But nothing is the same anymore for us. Hopefully next year we will do the Tree in Your Honor,we got You lots of Angels Ornaments we have them all over the house in Memory of You.Viva did a Beautiful Christmas Tree in Your Honor,she showed us Pictures and she has it in her Dining Room she told us near her  table,she misses You so much,she cries every time she mention your name. My Vanessa we hope You are resting and You have no more Pain sabiha. Last week Vincent took us to the Mall and Daddy and I were walking and saw this Store so we walked in there and I saw this table with Ornaments and picked this box and on the Ornament said,Even tough You are not here with us,You are Forever in Our Heart. Oh my bubbie, I started to cry and a lady came towards us and asked us if we wanted to have a name engraved on it,and both daddy and I said yes, and she pulled a paper out with the names and the writings how we wanted it,in script,Roman Letters etc...... and what we see Your name VANESSA........oh my bubbie we knew You were with us and that was a beautiful sign,so my phone rings and it was Your brother and he said mom where are You and I told him what store we were in  and he came and he saw me crying and I showed him the paper the lady had and he looked so sad too, we could not believe it bubbie because the other names were like City's and things and ONLY YOUR NAME WAS THERE.Keep sending us those Beautiful signs my Pupa,we believe You are always around us. We miss You so much .Look after All of us especially Your brother he needs You he is lost without You. We love You and wish YOU WERE HERE WITH US. STAY WARM .
Always and Forever
Mommy Daddy Brother Vincent